Not going well. Feel quite down. Just want to be alone. Need time on my own . This coming weekend will be a huge test. Gotta get in a better frame of mind. Need help . Not sure where to turn. Try to find a little solace in solitude. Hopefully it helps a bit but I'm worried. See if the androgel helps at all with energy and mood. Don't want it to boost libido too much. Really don't want to increase the connection. In a real bad place.
Maybe go talk to Andrew. Not sure what to say. May have to lean on him. If he breaks we can put him in hospital in Guelph. I can otn from anywhere if I have to. Who knows . Need to do review pa personality before I talk to him.
